Wednesday, October 12, 2005
~(^o^)3 :: FeAr oF a PeRfEcT anD ToO StRong FriEnDshiP EnDiNg... :: ~(^o^)3
As the day of the end of the friendship that has been withstanding very strongly and perfectly, is approaching me very soon, I find it very fearful and very upsetting to let SOMEONE go.. This SOMEONE has been wif me for ages. Let SOMEONE be unknown as I have no wish to reveal who he is.. I am very afraid that I can't let him go. Really can't let him leave me.. He is already part of my life since the day he stepped into my life. I can't just live my own life without him. I can say I love him as much as I love my dearest good friend. Sometimes I have dreamt the impossible that this SOMEONE will be my LONG LIFE PARTNER. I dunno why my dream comes out like that. I can say I would never love him as a partner. How I wish I can take care of him forever as long as I live. How I wish I could share his happiness, sorrows and problems. How I wish I could lend him my shoulder for him to lean on. How I wish he can be a STRONGER man then I will be glad. Once he becomes a STRONGER man, I may leave the country quietly. I won't let my friends know where I would want to go to live in a country. It may not be HongKong or Aussie.. It can be other countries.. But I can't leave yet cos I do not earn enough money and gain enough years of experience. I keep on worrrying about him constantly. I fear for him cos of his emotional state.. But I really fear for the day he really breaks down and faints at the spot or in my arms. My heart goes out to him as I wish I could cure him psychologically with my mind and heart. I will miss the days being with him around me everywhere we went... I knew it would end someday and it has come to an end.. And here I wish him all the best in what he does.. I pray for him, his safety, his health and his everything... Bon Voyage, Farewell, My Dearest Good Friend.. Wish You all the Best...
SlaPPeD By SaSSy BiTcH! @ 12:50 AM
